Full Steam Ahead

This morning was the first time in awhile that I have woken up without my stomach in knots and my mind whiring, it was such a great feeling, even better it was raining.

I know, weird, I may be one of the few people that wakes up in the morning, sees that its raining and thinks that its a positive thing, but seriously, I was standing outside this morning completely calm, enjoying the feeling of the rain, it was refreshing, like all the bad karma that has been heading my way lately was being washed off. For once I was completely happy, it felt like nothing could ruin the moment, and then my chocolate lab Beck piled into me and knocked me over, bringing me back to the real world. I guess its the story of my life.

Moving forward, this weekend was a good one, finally! I felt like everything was falling into place, I hope that this is the first good day of many. I also realized that my life isn't over, everyone makes mistakes (some more serious or detrimental than others) but that doesn't mean that the life as I know it is kaput, I'm 23, I have a lot left to live, I have a lot of growing up and life experience to gain, did I really think that one week from hell was going to set me back that much? Well yeah, I did, but I'm good now, thanks to lots of kind and encouraging words (from friends and strangers,) and even me just telling myself to snap out of it and move forward.

Life as I know it is changing, and I'm happy about it, right now more so than any other time, is not a time for me to slow down, I plan on continuing full steam ahead, no matter what the obstacle, I'm going to take it on.